can't rely on you :X

why would you asked me?
why would you forced me?
it's hard to believe
i don't like it i don't care about it
i don't know you and even i don't know what to do
well you were just like somebody else

noone to trust
noone to share
noone to care
noone to talk
noone to be someone

just you that i thought i can rely on
but i don't know how it goes
why would this happened to me?
why would my heart felt like, PHEW
i even don't know how to describe

MY IMAGINATION PRINCE CHARMING ;')

He looks damn nice before me
He cared so much 'bout me
His handsomeness mesmerized me
His smile always warmed me

But hey!
Am I dreaming?
Huh..yeahh hell Im just dreaming
He even doesn't really exist
He just the prince on my imagination
He just the prince on my wonderful dream

It's too hard to believe
It's too hard to convinced
It'll never be true
He just the character I build

lalala~

Im not totally free, wew..
Tomorrow is the first day of school exam. but heyy!! I can't wait for the last day of it. Im gonna going back hometown and the next day, "Bandung, I'm coming!!" :)
yesss u're right! Im gonna go to Bandung. Actually it's for attending my relative's wedding aniversary. But the day before, I can go for a walk and shopping! yeahh bibehh!hahaha

FINALLY:)

finally national exam has over!!yeyyyy!!
but wew! there's still the report*dag dig dug*
at least im free now.lol~

National EXAMination!!

Im stress out knowing that I haven't study at all for the national examination's subjects when I've got easter holiday. I hate that regret's always came late. It's just a day till the main day for final exam! Aargghh! Feels like wanna die!*hype*

But NO! I have to wake up! I have a chance to learn. I know I can! I can do what I want to do. Im gonna study well. Eventhough I have less time.. I just know that Im going to stand up!
So please everyone, pray for 2009's generation for 100% passing the national exam on 20th-24th April 2009. God bless us.AMEN:)

Thursday to Friday Together at Tawangmangu

Thursday, 09.04.09
I went to my grandma and grandpa's funeral at mojosongo, together with my relatives. After it we went to my cousin's house, to see her new house and just dropped by. My cousin's had borne a child named Revalino..he's cute :)

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My fam and I went to karangpandan (at my grandma's funeral-my dad's mom) first, then continued our trip to tawangmangu. The one who had driven there was ME! hehehe.
It rather scary for me because it's my first time drove my car to tawangmangu. The road was tortuous! But I did well~

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Entered tawangmangu-usually ppl called it 'TW', I drove quickly to 'hotel BINTANG'. And yeah, we arrived there then put our things to the room.
Because it's White Thursday-the first day that u must go to church before welcoming HOLY EASTER, my fam and I decided to go to Santa Maria church at TW. When we arrived there, wew...."Where's everyone?" It seems like there wasn't any mass there. It was on 6.30 pm. HAHA. My dad thought he was mistaken that the mass could be held on 7.00 am.
blah blah blah. Ternyata kamu tau, misae diundur on 8.00 pm!! Padahal my fam and I had gone dinner.hahah. Akernya tetep ngikutin misa tapi DIKIT terlambat.lol~

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Mbalek nd hotel, maoe langsong tidor..Tapi gak isa..pas baru maoe merem, ada xg ketok" kamarku dimana mapa uda pada nyenyak tuhh.
Ternyata ik Yanik n tio Anton..Katae mao cari maem.duh duh..tio Anton iki emang kuat maem.hahaha
Tio Anton pg kloar cari maem, trus aku mb ik Yanik sama siwak bergosiiiip ria mpe larut poll~
Kira" mpe jam 2 ato setenga 3 gitu..dari jam 12'an bee.hahah.
nyambung juga ternyata aku ngomong sama para ai'ku.LOL.
Then? GO TO SLEEP...zzzzzzzz

Friday, 10.04.09
GROJOGAN SEWU, WE'RE COMING!!xD

Me, my mom, siwak, and ik Yanik's fam went to grojogan sewu..sebenere blom rencana tuh.gtw moro" mao ksana..padahal aku pake high heels!! Nah lho..kebayang gak sih pg grojogan sewu yang penuh tangga naik turun gitu pake heels!! wew~
mestie mama yang pake heels'ku...tapi berhubung jadi ke grojogan sewu, kasian donk kalo harus mama yang pake hak tinggi.mending aku aja.kan uda hebaaaaaaat.hahaha
jadi aku yang susah" pake heel.akernya ada juga yang jual thongs. Oh thankyou God;p
Pas bli sandal, atio bli kacang gae para monyet" nakal yang slalu ngrebut makanan itu. Ada xg lucu lho monyet'e..masi nggendong anaknyaaa..kayak kangguru ae, dimasukno nd kantongane gitu.haha
yawes poe blah blah blah deee!!
Im having fun there!:D

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