can't rely on you :X

why would you asked me?
why would you forced me?
it's hard to believe
i don't like it i don't care about it
i don't know you and even i don't know what to do
well you were just like somebody else

noone to trust
noone to share
noone to care
noone to talk
noone to be someone

just you that i thought i can rely on
but i don't know how it goes
why would this happened to me?
why would my heart felt like, PHEW
i even don't know how to describe

MY IMAGINATION PRINCE CHARMING ;')

He looks damn nice before me
He cared so much 'bout me
His handsomeness mesmerized me
His smile always warmed me

But hey!
Am I dreaming?
Huh..yeahh hell Im just dreaming
He even doesn't really exist
He just the prince on my imagination
He just the prince on my wonderful dream

It's too hard to believe
It's too hard to convinced
It'll never be true
He just the character I build

MENGAPA AKU HARUS MENJADI AKU?

Perasaan..
Knapa harus ada?
Perlukah merasa senang?
Perlukah merasa sedih dan kecewa?
Perlukah ada rasa takut?

Sepi..
Hampa..
Bagaikan semut kecil di antara para raksasa..
Berteriak pun tak terdengar
Bersuara nan percuma

Haruskah ini kualami?
Manis dan pahit bercampur menjadi satu..
Seperti manusia bertopeng,
Tak dapat ditebak, tak dapat digapai..
Tertawa bahagia sekaligus menangis tersedu..
Mengapa?

Inikah jalan yang ingin kulewati?
Tidakkah aku merasa tersesat dan sendiri?
Kapankah ku dapat memahami arti semua ini?
Kapankah ku dapat memahami segalanya?
Mensyukuri dan menerima dengan lapang..
Hanya ada kata kecewa

Terkadang ku bertanya, "MENGAPA aku harus MENJADI aku?"

nothing but you:)

Am I the right one to be yours?
Am I the first one to be cared?
Am I deserve this life much?
With you?
NO?
You needn't to answer
You needn't to pay attention

There's nothing to be concerned about
There's nothing to be seen
There's nothing to be payed
HUH?

Noone can hurt me
Noone can love me
Noone can believe in me
Noone can be the nicest one for me

They're nothing
They can be noone
They can't be!
Nothing but YOU:)

one more day!LOL:D

one more day
one last day
just one more anything
before..
the seventeeth age of me
yeahh hell

im done many useless
im done many bad ass
im done many disgraceful
im done many disadvantageous things

well im sucks
thinkin' that it's all about a play
well it's me
it's the last opportunity to be free!

be different
be mature
be a NEW me
request from all of ur prayer
thanks to all of my friend
who're always there beside me

one last shot
one more day!
teen to be off ages
im growing up

bad day

bad day bday byda
bady bda bad day bday day
bayd bday dbayd bday bad ya
bad day!!

wtf have happened?

damn im crazy
damn im out of control
damn im scoundrel
damn i hope im not as that bad
damn i am!

it's just a bad day
i do it again (even just me who's knowing that)
my biggest enemy's just myself
i hate it
i wanna destroy it
my self my life
it's ruin

WHAT THE??

Tryin to understanding u..
Confuse myself
Im so panicky
Afraid of losing u,my bestfriend
Afraid of something that can broke our relationship
These feeling just makes me so BAD
What the f*** has happened?
I just don't know.
The problems come from me
Perhaps.
I'm sorry to behave like this
I'm now have to endeavor
Straighten what had happened
Correcting what i had said about
I know I just swaying with the wind..
These feeling makes me insane

``SMILE but SAD``

"Your smile is sweet"
From your deepest heart..
You're kind to all
You and I were alright

There's nothing to be worried about
until another comes
She just like 'want me to break our relationship'
but NO..I just don't know
I do need YOU!
As my BEST BESTFRIEND!

But the feeling of this fuckin' envious comes
When someone good at you, not to me
What we both like to do,
YOU do BETTER!
What we both like to be,
YOU just do too!
What people likes from me,
They just MORE LIKE YOU!
You has stolen everything!

I smiled now
I'm crying inside..
Is this the one who I believe is my bestie?
I just don't know
You may not guilty
You has been iritating
I needn't to endeavor
Endeavor what has been started
I don't want to hurt
I don't want to go into a deep HOLE
A deep hole that could make me hard to leave
To leave our beautiful memories
In this friendship that don't reserved to be ours